September 26, 2008

Learning myself

It's been time since I have posted in this blog due to me running into problems and at the same time I am learning how to speak my peoples language correctly. It's most differently hard to learn but I will get it down and in a year's time I will be speaking fluent Ojibwe. That's a goal I have for myself before I go back home.

On that note I will continue keeping up with my blog now since I ran into a brick wall and I noticed I have retracted from the life I once knew to a life that does not fit my life. I am not racist but I believe I picked up the white mans way of dealing with thing's and with me saying that I need to re look at my life and continue to work at my own personal person. My elder's even told me I was not acting like aniishanibe, I was acting like a bull with no brain's and it's 100% correct and it hurt me to admit it. Losing yourself is a bad thing but it can be fixed and I will fix the problem.

That's it for now till I post again which I got something in mind of whats to come. It will make things more better for to plan this out this time round since I still got problems on my mind so give me sometime!

April 19, 2008

A man that is confused

Time and time again the world seems to move at it's own pace with life outside our realm. It will slow down then it will do a complete 360 and go really fast. For the past month I been doing alright and could denie a lie in that. Things have been going pretty much fast and enjoying the coming spring. Yet now I feel completely trapped in a false hope of something my heart wants yet, its not completely in tone with itself and I feel completely confused.

I don't want to say much but my mind has been on one topic the past few weeks and really I felt a happiness when it was talked about. But as she talks about it with herself worried about the same things as I am. Could this really work or could this be a false hope in something. I just don't know, all I know is that following the path that a heart brings you is the best way to go. So I guess I will just do that. And I guess she does the same.

That was just something I needed to get off of my chest and now that I feel better but still kinda blah. I wanted to say that in the next few days I will be writing another blog on faith and hopes something needed to be touched for those that read this.

March 22, 2008

The thinking of the world

Day by day we live this so called life the way it is suppose to be. Really honestly do you think living the life we are now is the way it was meant to be. We live lies daily and some of us can't shake the shell off of them to see outside of their box. In terms they are hiding away from the real world and don't want to relies that one day their is gonna be an end. An end to the weak and living for the strong. Yet most humans want to believe that their beloved lord is going to come down and take them away before hell breaks loose.

Most things that I understand in this world are meaningless to myself. I understand my fault's but yet I do not live these lies, for I sit here today writing this blog about the matter. Just ask yourself a few simple question's that can be answered by yourself and no one else. example: What is going to happen?

Think about the matter and pounder the meaning to each matter you look at. Each man, each women, each child, and each animal, they all have a path they have to walk-in in this life. Each their own destiny, each their own blood. Understand this and you understand only enough to keep yourself moving, if your not doing that with you life your living a lie and you will be blind to the what the world is speaking. You will be blind to the truth that is standing in-front of you.

Yet Im gonna leave everyone thinking of what is coming next, this is a start from new for me. I saw something happen before my eyes that I think could never happen. I can see the truth and lies around me and trust me they could be so simple you are just baffled by how clear it is if you can see it.